Just appreciating what I dont have...

As I rode my bike in to work this morning, even though I have a nasty cold, It felt SO good. I also think it is fun. I really love that we only have one car, and that I practically never have to drive it. I like looking back and waving to my grinning baby girl, who I tow in a little red bike cart behind me.

I also like biking to work, and occasionally other places because it means that if Roller derby practice is rained out- or I can't go for some other reason- I don't feel gross because I didn't get any exercise that day. I do still feel kind of yucky if I miss more than one day of skating.

I really stopped driving because I HATE driving. I can appreciate all of the other benefits- the non selfish ones like reduced pollution and traffic congestion- that come with alternative modes of transportation. I am also glad that Albuquerque is not too big, so getting around on a bike sometimes is pretty easy.

Yummy...

Lately I have had several meals that looked so pretty that I wanted to share them, but I usually didn't have my camera nearby to take a picture. I mentioned to Adam that I wanted to post some pictures and possibly recipes but I could never remember to take pictures while dinner was still pretty- meaning, before we started eating. This meal was lovely, delicious, and beautiful. Also, my wonderful husband remembered to take a picture before we started eating last night.
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The meal is lean beef sauteed with onion and garlic, steamed veggies and seasoned potatoes.

I am really confused about my post baby body. I work out really hard, and often. I exercise daily. I include aerobic and aerobic activities into my exercise routine almost every day. I eat a pretty balanced diet. I am about as healthy as I was Before Autumn was born... yet I am still really fat. I don't get it. I am not sure how much of the baby weight I have lost, or how much I have left. I gained about 90 lbs during my pregnancy, which I also can't really explain. When I went in for my 6 week check-up I had lost about 40 lbs. Now I know I am have lost at least 10 more pounds, and possibly more, but I am far to active to be retaining weight like this, and really, the extra lbs are getting in the way. I am not as flexible as I used to be.

On top of all of this, I am severely depressed and very moody. I also got a sunburn for the first time in about 10 years last week. I can't think clearly most of the time. I feel dizzy or disoriented when I try to move fast, or get up quickly. I feel painfully tired all of the time.

I have been guessing that my hormone levels were a little off after having a baby, and wasn't sure if that was normal, as it is only 7 months out. I don't know what exactly the conversation was based around, but Adam's mom suggested that I see an endocrinologist, or hormone specialist. That is a good Idea, but I am not sure when that will look feasible now that we are moving back to Albuquerque.